Burnt Hair

A while ago a burned a section of my hair. Not entirely sure how I did it. So then I got it cut but there is still a section that is totally fried. So here's the thing, I am really really bothered by it. Way more than I should be. I have had days where I thought I was going to lose my mind because of my fried hair. It won't style, it just lays on my head and has no evidence of health. And the rest of my hair is pretty nice, I must say. So having this patch of bad hair is just so unacceptable to me.

I am getting it cut off later, in the belief that when I do I will be a happier person. How fucked up is that?

I wish I didn't place so much importance on something so trivial. I wish I didn't constantly compare my looks, clothes, car etc with others. I almost always think I come up short. I am too fat, too old, too unremarkable, too invisible when compared to everyone else. I try to use all the tricks like positive self talk and such to convince myself that I am not on a lower rung all the time. Sometimes I can do it and sometimes I can't. In the meantime though I am the only one I see around me with a big old patch of hay hanging on my head.